The last couple weeks of finals and such were crazy. I completely tanked on my practical final for fitness assessment. We were in a room with the professor, lab instructor and a "client" and they just started drilling me and I completely froze. It was one of the most humiliating experiences of my life! Also the first 'D' I've gotten in my life. Even worse, ironically enough, that is the lab that I got hired to be the instructor for next semester for my graduate assistantship! Probably a good thing I got hired before that happened! Also in those two weeks were two presentations, two finals, and I had to complete my prospectus (mini proposal). Needless to say, it was a bit stressful.
I must be crazy. Speaking of that prospectus, my teacher was helping me with it and she was trying to convince me that I had to turn it into an actual thesis study...and I'm kind of considering it. Crazy! I never thought I would go to grad school, then I swore that the only way I would go to grad school was if I didn't have to do a thesis. So, I'm currently a "plan C" (non thesis) option. After this semester, though, I'm beginning to wonder if I'm cheating myself out of reaching my potential--whatever that may be. This semester was incredible. I worked so hard, but I can't believe how much I learned. When I told my research design professor I wasn't doing a thesis she mumbled "such a waste." What?! I didn't know how to respond. Was that a compliment or an insult? Either way, it hit me hard and really got me thinking. Is it a waste? Or is it just me being reasonable and not doing a thesis because it isn't necessary for my goals? Am I avoiding a thesis because I don't want or need to complete one, or because I'm scared or lazy? I honestly don't know. Any advice is much appreciated!
Anywho...the semester ended and I took off for Orem for a couple days. I got to go to CFC for a while and visit with my old coworkers. It was great to see them again. At first I was really sad and was missing being with them and working at the Center, but after a little bit, I was reminded of all the office stress and drama and I am SO grateful to be back in school! Then, I went to Linsday's reception (m one of the CFC receptionists). She looked so happy and so adorable! The rest of the time I spent with Mary and Chelsea. I love those girls. :)
Since then, I've just been wasting time around the house. I know I should be grateful that I have time to take naps and play bejewled blitz, but I would love to be busy again! I feel like a waste of space! I hope to work a bit on my life history, keep looking for a job, and of course, work out a ton on my new exercise bike. Yep, I did it! I bought a nordictrack audio rider. I found it on KSL and got a pretty great deal on it. It is awesome! I can plug my mp3 player into it and listen to music and I LOVE having it in the house. Well, that's the update and here's a pic of my new toy!
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